The closest I can get to my wife is a picture on the internet. She's beautiful.
I've been wrestling with positivity and productivity, namely trying to convince myself that I can be either one of those concepts. I have things I think I can be proud of. I got a job working for the public television station here. It's the graveyard shift, but I'm really excited about being involved with public tv.
I've succeeded in my goal of running every other day, though I managed to injure my leg this evening which is awesome.
I'm still pursuing Buddhism.
I've toned down the video games, though not as much as I really want to.
I've been in touch with Greg more and subsequently feel a real connection despite the distance between us.
I'm still alive, a feat I'm not sure how I'm pulling off.
These are the things I have to start to focus on. Living in utter despair is not going to end well for me.